Presbymom

I feel as if I am a lame duck in that weird part of a job where everyone knows that you are leaving. All of the work that you do is questionable because people wonder if you cared enough to do it right - or wonder why you did it at all. So, I concentrate on other stuff! My daughter is doing yet another ballet recital. She looks so much more mature than in the others - and this year it actually looks like dancing instead of children thrashing about on a stage. It makes me sad and proud. My son's soccer team finished their season undefeated - gasp, I am still adjusting to the whole idea that I am actually a soccer mom for real! Ah well, I guess it is time to ante up and join the gym so that I don't look too much like that soccer mom in the stands with a ding dong and coffee....

This has been a big week. I passed my preaching exam with Presbytery and was at an all-time high only to turn around on Tuesday and be out and out lambasted in e-mail by a member of the church who is disgruntled and unhappy with his shrinking volunteer role. He was truly angry that the church is reducing (and sharing with others) what he views as his territory. I guess that losing control of things is always hard, but why do people have to be so mean when they think you are the threat? Or just the least powerful component of the threatening organization. Isn't a church supposed to be the place of a non-dysfunctional family. why does it sometimes seem to be the opposite. It is the place where people feel safe exposing all of their nastiness. Safe yes - nasty no! hat is not how or who we are called to be with one another. I stay sane by volunteering for pieces that excite and interest me. I am blessed by many along my journey. I felt wrapped in warmth and support on Sunday. I think ...

Yawn! Slowly awakening with the new day. There is such creativity and art all around me. I feel inadequate. Eater and spring bring rejuvenation, but I am not there yet. Now more than ever I want a nap and a vacation. Is it the church, kids' with too many activities or just stagnancy in my creative outlets? hmmm Another cool note - I listened to a wonderful presentation on recycling with worms. The whole concept that is really neat. You put this bin under your sink with worms in one layer. The worms eat all biodegradible materials leaving you with fertilizer tea, no smell - they promise. I may have to look into this some more for my summer project.